There were no bars surrounding me
I could have walked away at any time
But I felt I could not
I believed that God held me hostage
Hostage to the marriage vows I took
He did not care if I had made a mistake…
It was too late and now I am trapped
I had stood before Him and vowed my life to a man
To dissolve it would be a sin, I was told
I did not want to upset God…
I did not know what to do
I did not know want to say
I only knew I was not ready for this life…
But I believed I was trapped
I stayed for two years
I did try to adjust
I accepted my fate
But my rage was simmering
My anger a glow
My resentment was growing…
Because I knew I was trapped
I needed to escape
I needed to be free
I needed to have the ability to be me…
My courage was lost
But now it is found
I have unlocked my cell door…
Yet I still feel trapped
Trapped by guilt and shame
Trapped by my ever-growing fear
Can I survive this new life?
Does God still love me?
Is He still there?
Will He stay with me?
Now that I am free.